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Monday, November 21, 2016

The Reality Of Westworld


For those of you that have not seen the HBO series, Westworld, here is a breakdown of the plot: A “world” (duh) set in the “west” (double duh), was created where humans can interact with extremely lifelike robots, live out fantasies, and have adventures, all without the threat of serious physical harm.

It’s like Vegas x 1,000.

Sounds awesome, but at $40,000 a day, not going to happen any time soon (at least for me).
I knew where the show was going to go, ultimately questioning reality, and I have been waiting 8 episodes for it to get there.

Last night, it got there.

And when it did, the way they did it, between the writing, acting, and execution, it was pure gold.
Here is my breakdown, in relationship to us, of the best two minutes of writing I may have ever seen on TV.

Our Reality?

Starting at minute 37:

“What do you really feel?

After all, at this moment, you are in a unique position. A program that knows intimately how the machine works and a machine that knows its own true nature.”

We can’t even begin to ask ourselves a question like this unless we have a certain level of maturity. I don’t mean a certain age, I mean maturity. If you were not aware that age does not equal maturity, you are not mature.

I have met plenty of “old” people that sound like a dumb kid.

Remember, mature, not old.

At this point you have seen the good and bad side of life. You have seen the best and worst in people. 
You have had your own ups and downs, examined yourself, worked on the problems, gotten better each year, and consistently reflected on yourself in order to keep growing.

You know how people work, and more importantly, you know how you work.

How do you feel when you look at the world around you? What do you feel as you make your way through the day? Things you hear on the radio? See on TV? The people you deal with as you traverse from home to work and back again?

Maybe at this point you want to take the questioning to a higher level. Maybe your questions start sounding like this.

“I understand what I’m made of, how I’m coded.

But I do not understand the things that I feel.

Are they real?

The things I experienced?”

You have seen the best and worst of yourself. There are things in place in your life that allow you to feel good, to function at a high level, and to be consistent from day to day, whether that be work, home, relationships, etc.

Do you still have bad days? Yes.

Depressed every once in a while? Yes.

Good and bad moods that you can’t really put a finger on? Yes.

On a good day life is wonderful. On a bad day, what’s the point? Right?

Ever ask yourself what the point of all this is? Life?

If you are honest, the answer is yes.

This is where you really get to know yourself, diving deep in to self-awareness.

We tend to praise ourselves for the good things and others for the bad. Why would we want to look negatively at ourselves when we could just blame Rick (Gary Vee’s nemesis) and be done with it?

F*** you Rick. It’s all your fault!

What is the point of everything that I have gone through, or even worse, what I am going through now?

You feel like you have a grip on yourself, that you have figured “it” out, but why do you still feel like this?

Maybe it doesn’t seem real. Maybe you feel as confused as the hosts in Westwood. If you do, then you should think about this:

“Every host needs a backstory, but you know that.

This stuff is a kind of fiction.

It’s the story we tell ourselves.

Every story needs a beginning.

Your imagined suffering makes you lifelike.”

We all need to come from something, and we are all headed somewhere. A quote that I have used to pick myself up during down times is: “every saint has a past and ever sinner has a future.”

What is your backstory?

What is your future story?

What are you other than stories?

Stories you have written yourself. Stories you have allowed others to write about you. You read them all as if they are the absolute truth, but are they really? Are you really that good, or that bad? Do you really think you are that sexy? Or that unattractive?

Maybe you aren’t at the extremes, maybe you are just in the middle. You are just ok. Nothing special. Nothing unique. People don’t really like you. They don’t hate you. You are just in the middle. Bleh.

The story you tell yourself is your identity.

You suffer so you have an identity.

You celebrate so you have an identity.

You love.

You hate.

It’s your story.

It’s who you are.

Or is it?

Are you alive? Is it really you?

“Lifelike, but not alive?

Pain only exists in the mind?

It’s always imagined?

Then what’s the difference between my pain and yours?

Between you and me?”

How do you feel after reading this?

How does it make you feel about us? Humans?

What if we are functioning in this world as more lifelike than alive? Our pain and suffering. Our love. Our loss. Is it all imagined? Is it really there? Would it be as good or as bad if we didn’t allow it to be?

We have all met people that don’t open up, never let anyone in.

We have also met people that open up and let everyone in (if you know what I mean).

What if we didn’t? What if we stopped telling ourselves the stories that allow us to be open or closed with the world? What if the story changed? What if we were reprogrammed? What if we could see the world differently? See potential where we used to see nothing? See beauty where we used to see emptiness?

What would we be then?

Would it be more real? Or less?

“The answer always seemed obvious to me. There is no threshold that makes us greater than the sum of our parts. No inflection point at which we become fully alive.

We can’t define consciousness because consciousness does not exist.

Humans fancy that there is something special about the way we perceive the world, and yet, we live in loops almost as tight and closed as the hosts do. Seldom questioning our choices, content for the most part being told what to do next.

No my friend, you are not missing anything at all.”

Clash With Reality

Our most difficult times come when our reality clashes with the stories we tell ourselves.

If I am so good, how did this happen?

If I am so smart, why did I fail?

If I am so beautiful, why didn’t he pick me?

We have our most difficult times, our existential and midlife crisis, and our breakdowns, when the things that we have been telling ourselves, the stories we have written, prove to be nothing more than stories.

How could this happen? Because of the story we told.

It’s our own fault if we didn’t write in a contingency plan, a pivot, or an alternate route.

It’s our own fault when we wrote in someone else having the power over our self-worth, or self-esteem.

It’s our story that holds us down too hard, or too long.

It’s our story that builds us up too high for too long.

What makes us real is not reality, it’s our story. We are the hosts of this world. Not Westworld, Realworld. Not Real World (MTV), Realworld.

We write the narrative, pick out the costumes, define the parameters, and choose our interactions, dialogue, and temperament.

How do you want your world to be?

What is your reality?

How do you want to change it?

It is all up to you.

Monday, August 15, 2016

"The Night Of" Is The Story Of Us


I have been blown away the last 6 weeks by the HBO mini-series, or as they call it, a limited series, (which is basically just a mini-series), The Night Of.

Honestly, I was 4 weeks late to the party, so I have only been blown away for a couple weeks (but six times!!).

If you have not seen it, I will spin the story in a way that you don’t miss anything (but it may spoil some of the show for you).

So we are all on the same page: Nasir Khan is a good, working class, Pakistani (US born), college student accused of murdering a woman he had just met. Without bail, he is forced to fight his case from “the inside.”

In New York City, “the inside” is Riker’s Island.

Yup, you read that right.

Not even convicted, and doing time at Rikers. The moral of the story is, don’t f*** up in New York City (unless you can post bail).

Throughout the series so far, we have seen an amazing transformation of young Nas (his nickname, not the rapper). He has gone from an innocent looking college student, to a shaved head, bulked up, tattooed knuckles having, prisoner beating, crack smoking, inmate.

As crazy as that sounds,

He Is Just Like Us

Not exactly. I am hoping you don’t have prison tattoos on your knuckles and are smoking crack, but you never know. This article may be more on point than I had intended.

He is just like us in the way he is losing himself. It is EXACTLY how we lose ourselves: We don’t have a true identity.

None of us want to admit that, but it’s true. If you have ever found yourself in a situation where you don’t even recognize who you are anymore, you don’t have an identity. You are like waves being pushed around by the wind. You can be tossed around because you have no roots. You want to be a tree, but you are just a leaf.

Nas has no identity. He is becoming what people think he is. His lack of identity created a vacuum for the media’s perspective to fill the void.

Don’t we do the same thing?

We are what they think we are?

I’m not good enough. I’m not smart enough. I’m not pretty. I’m not handsome. I’m fat. I have bad hair. I’m a loser.

We tell ourselves these horrible things because people tell us these horrible things, or at least we think they do. That’s how the downward spiral begins. Pretty soon, you don’t know who you are, and you hate who you’ve become.

Define Yourself

The only way to plant deep roots is to live with purpose. Dig in. What kind of person do you want to be? What kind of a parent? Employee? Friend? Lover?

Nas should still be the same kid that walked through those prison walls 5 episodes ago, but he’s not. 

He has changed. Rikers pulled him away from himself, and he let it. Just like we do.

Drugs, other women, other men, gambling, ego, jealousy, alcohol. What pulls you away?

Who are you really?

And what have you allowed yourself to become?

You need to define yourself and take control.


Thursday, April 14, 2016

I Hate Google



I hate Google.

I really do.

Google and I are not friends. No simpatico.

Google sucks.

A Google is forever.

“You shouldn’t live in the past.” That’s what everyone says. Not Google. They are all about the past. In fact, they like reliving the past too. That’s what happens when old news is new news. If you are just getting the information, it’s new news to you.

I try not to live in the past. I really do.

If I did, I don’t know how I would get out of bed in the morning.

I totally fucked up. I made a mistake. I would love to forget it, but thanks to Google, that won’t happen. That’s 90% of why I wrote my book: Prison Diary(a) – A San Quentin Comedy, Kinda. I HAD to. Google forced my hand. It would be much easier to leave my past in the past and move on. New day, new me, you know? But no. I had to write a book because no matter what I do (nearly 5 years later), if you search me, you see all the news coverage from my arrest, like it happened yesterday. Without a book I would just be waiting around for people to “find out.” I decided that the obstacle would be the way. If I attack it head on, I know that everyone I work with or deal with knows that there is an old Joey and a new Joey. There is a mistake and there is a person. Not a bad person. A good person that did a stupid thing. There are lessons learned, a life healed and a purpose driven individual that pushes himself every single day. There is no hiding here. I am all out in the open and ready for any and everything.

But I still hate Google.

I like to think of myself as the epitome of what the judicial system would want: highly educated, single arrest, smart, hard-working, learned from my mistakes, gritty, and a grinder. I am a rehabilitated, productive member of society. Yippee!

But then there is Google.

Just recently I was volunteering to help out the marketing for a non-profit in the SF Bay. I am VERY good at strategies and implementation of on-line marketing. VERY GOOD. The interviewer said he “googled” me and that was all he needed to say. He wished me luck. It looked like I was doing well, but he could not use me.

Fuck you Google.

I can’t volunteer? I am trying to work with a group designed to give people second chances yet I am not able to get a second chance? Seriously? I know I am completely biased here, but is that fair?
Don’t get me wrong, nothing is going to stop me. I will keep pushing and grinding along. I will find the right people with the right mindset. The ones that like me AND aren’t worried about what other people say. People that want a job done well by an intelligent, creative, hard-working, 30-something-year-old.

That’s me!

I have a past, but so do you. Luckily yours is not on Google. If those stories came down, I would still have the arrest record, still have the past, but the old news wouldn’t be the new news 5 years later, eventually 6 and 7 years later. If nothing changes, I will still be dealing with this shit 10 years later.

I hate you Google.

I think about my mistake enough, I don’t need your help.

With a record I already can’t get a license to practice anything. Not to be a therapist (I would be so good at that too). No lawyering (I’ve had enough BS courtrooms for a lifetime). Not even a real estate license. Seriously? Because I have a record I can’t sell a house? That doesn’t even make sense.

And I can’t go to Canada.

That one actually stings. I love Canada. I would love to take my family up there. But it’s not going to
happen, eh.

Damnit.

So on top of all the things I can’t do, there is a fat ass “Google” bow on top of it all.
In Europe they allow you to petition to have old stories removed. Stories that may make it hard for someone who has done their time, rehabilitated themselves, and ARE productive members of society to move on with their life. That sounds awesome. Do they do that here? Of course not. Why? Who knows, but they should.  

I would love to have my mug shot taken off of Google. The “Hey, I’m a fat, piece of shit, idiot” photo removed. That would be nice. The local stories (from 2012) gone when you search my name. Hell, my book is already all over the place, it’s not like I am trying to hide anything. I would just love it if the positives were given a chance to take center stage. Obviously the news channels work the Google algorithms so their stuff is on top. There is all kinds of good stuff when you search my name: books, blogs, pictures, stories, etc. But you have to get passed the old stories first.

You need to get over the past to move on to the future.

That means you Google.

Written by Joey Reghitto, author of: Prison Diary(a) – A San Quentin Comedy, Kinda